爱情小说《傲慢与偏见》英语读后感【热门20篇】

The feeling of 《Pride And Prejudice》

Then man treat great event in one‘s life with punishing, Demonstrate different attitudes to the love question of the marriage of young girl of the family origin of middle class of villages and towns, Thus reflected authors oneself‘s marriage view: It is wrong to get married for the property, money and position; Get married and does not consider that above-mentioned factors are unwise too . So, she objects to getting married for money , objecting to regarding the marriage as a trifling matter . She emphasizes the importance of the ideal marriage , and regard men and women‘s emotion as the foundation stone which concludes the ideal marriage .

The woman protagonist in the book Elizabeth comes from the little landlord‘s family, reaches the west to have deep love for for the rich and powerful people sons and younger brothers. Reach the disparity of ignoring family status and wealth of the west, propose to her, but is refused. Elizabeth‘s misunderstanding and prejudice to him are a reason, but a main one is the arrogance that she dislikes him. Reach the thes of the west in fact status‘ the reflections of difference, exist this kind arrogant, Not having common thoughts and feelings between he and Elizabeth, the marriage that can not have lofty ideals . Elizabeth watches conducting oneself in society and a series of behavior of reaching the west personally afterwards, See he change the proud conceited expressions of passing by, dispel misunderstanding and prejudice to him, Thus concluded the happy marriage with him.

[傲慢与偏见英语读后感作文

简单的英语读后感（一）

During this winter vacation I had the opportunity to read the book Gone with the Wind. It is a great novel written by American author Margaret Michell in the 1930s. It’s a story about southern living in the US during the Civil War. The story depicts the raise and fall of several wealthy families who owned plantations and slavers in Georgia, their love affairs and their pride as the well-to-do southerners. I especially like Scarlett O’Hara, who was a b-willed southern woman. She was brought up in a rich family who owned many slaves and a large plantation. However, as the Yankee army from the Union marching down the South, the southerners lost their cause. O’Hara’s plantation was eventually destroyed by the war. But as a b woman, she refused to go hungry. I was especially touched by the words she said in the final chapter of the book, with great hope, tomorrow is another day. 简单的英语读后感（二）

I was sure to be left deep impression by the film The Ron Clark Story. That"s just what a good teacher should be like. From it, we can get something like follows.

Everyone is born with his or her kindness. That maybe the main reason for Mr. Clark"s student"s changing their minds. Together with Mr. Clark"s creation and his encouragements to his students, he gets to be successful.

Mr. Clark knows clearly that the children are all very kind in their heart bottoms. Then he tries to use his true love and expectations for them t make them moved. We all know that one"s habits or minds are quite difficult to change. Although during it Mr. Clark also feels depressed, things get to be better after his perseverance.

Then, Mr. Clark hasn"t been limited in the traditional way of teaching. He combines the history events with rap, which was so popular in the children. And the effect is so obvious. The children can remember them easily.

Besides, the children get to be more confident because of his encouragement. Once one has been confident, his or her potential ability comes out easily. Then they are sure to do a good job. That"s just what they do in their exam.

In my point of view, Mr. Clark"s true love, perseverance, creation and encouragements bring him his success. And it seems that sure of them are true of many other thins.

暑假时拿到了一本书，黑色的封面上映着更加乌黑的大字：活着。我很少看到一本书的题目就如此深沉，怀着巨大的好奇心翻开了第一页。

这本书是作者听了美国民歌后写下的小说，作者余华不动声色的让我们跟随着他冰冷的笔调，亲眼目睹人们在这个叫活着的故事里接二连三的死去。

大致阅览了这本小说，主要是讲了“我”在乡下听一位名叫福贵的老人讲述自己的故事。福贵原本是一个地主家的少爷，由于好赌而输尽家财变成一个穷人，他被国民党抓去当壮丁，经历了大跃进、人民公社化运动和-----，他的亲人相继死去，最后只剩他和他的一头老牛活到现在。

我的心情跌宕起伏，先是为福贵的败家而感到气愤，再后来又为了福贵悲惨的命运感到悲哀。整个故事氛围都比较阴沉沉，但是，无论福贵的命运有多么悲惨不堪，即使到了趋于死亡的边缘，他都活了下来，在悲伤的情节之间，福贵在死亡的伴随下活着。福贵，他年轻时并不是一个值得尊敬的人物，当时的他放荡不羁，后来虽然变老实了，但是并不懂得教育孩子。不过仔细想想他还是有着其余人不曾拥有的品质。福贵受到的打击和痛苦是常人所没有的，可他还是靠着自己的力量，坚强的活着，不像春生因为在-----受挫折而自杀，这种精神还是值得我们赞扬的。

在现实生活中，像福贵那样抹着浓厚的悲惨色调的人很少，但是我们会遇到大大小小的崎岖坎坷，在挫折面前，或气馁投降，或昂首挺胸继续前行，这样，生活中的大小细节和感受都会被我们遗忘，被时间所遗忘。

合上书本，鲜艳的红再次入我眼里。我知道时光如黑夜一样正在转瞬即逝，死亡也终会如黑夜从天而降。但只要像现在这样活着，宁静就在遥远的身旁波动……

"Pride and prejudice" this book in junior high school have touched. Just at that time only saw the emotional entanglement between the actor and actress, ups and downs mood and let people immersed in them, after a few years, through again, do not have a flavor.

Bennet had five daughters were not married, and Mrs. Bennet is a neurotic vanity is dye-in-the-wood woman, will each daughter.many is her this life only event but never bother to discipline daughters behavior, and Mr. Bennett is a family-centered old gentleman, but orgiastically wife and daughters inappropriate behavior, prefer to hide into the library to seek calm. Jane Bennett is bennets daughter, beautiful appearance, disposition gentle, quiet, Ellie was Bennett is bennet family second daughter, personality vivacious, intelligent and beauty and rig, The third daughter Mary looks not if other sisters well, therefore in character and knowledge on studying hard, but also caused her arrogant attitude; The Kitty ranked fourth personality buckish, with yao sister Lydia hottest loyal dancing, behavior often disrespect not know; Yao daughters vanity, pay attention to enjoyment, dancing and and army officers dou make fun is her sole purpose in life. One day the near their house moved to a rich single man bingley Charles. He is a personality temperate, personhood sincere not the nuances of the rich young man, in a banquet bingley but love on the bennet daughter Jane, and Jane Bennett mutual love, While bingleys good friend darcy · fee Bates William personality formal serious, mismanagement words often give a person arrogance arrogance impressed, unwittingly like work knuts the second daughter of house was Ellie, but because the Bennett a itself is not decent family make these two relationship by obstacle, Ellie was the beginning of arrogance darcy bias, the main thing is to describe their this relationship transformation process.

自从我读了这本《中外名人故事》书之后对我的影响很大，也让我明白了世界上有许许多多的大人物。下面让我一个一个介绍给你们听吧！

张衡是我国伟大的天文学家、数学家、发明家、地理学家、制图学家、诗人。为我国发明了许多东西如浑天仪、地动仪、指南针等现在我们谈谈他的经历吧！张衡出生在河南省石桥镇。他家很穷但他很小就勤奋好学，很早就闻名乡里。

他十岁时就“能五经贯六艺”，他兴趣很广泛。张衡对天文也很感兴趣，他努力探索天文奥秘，在这方面取得了成就。他当时发明出了一个地动仪，那个时期总是发生地震，当时皇上和百姓把地震看作是不吉利的征兆，认为是神造成的，可张衡最后他发明出了地动仪。

地动仪是用青铜做的，形状像个酒，四周铸着八条龙，龙头伸向八个方向。每个龙嘴里含着个小铜球，龙头下面，蹲了个大蛤蟆，哪个地方发生了地震，朝着那个方向的龙嘴就会自动张开来，把铜球吐出来。铜球掉进蛤蟆嘴里就发出声来，这就是张衡的历史，每一个人都有他的成就如祖冲之、沈括、李时珍……

这本书告诉我们，我们长大也要成为有用之才报效祖国。

今天，我和哥哥去了书城，来到了儿童读物专柜。突然，眼睛瞄到了一本书，名叫《追风筝的人》，我立刻来了兴趣，马上从书架抽出来看了。

Today, my brother and I went to the bookstore, came to the childrens book shop. Suddenly, eyes into a book, the name of "Kite Runner", I immediately to the interest, immediately from the shelf pumping out read.

《追风筝的人》的作者是卡勒德·胡赛尼，故事主要讲了12岁的阿富汗富家少爷阿米尔与仆人哈桑情同手足。然而，在一场风筝比赛后，发生了一件悲惨不堪的事，阿米尔为自己的懦弱感到自责和痛苦，逼走了哈桑，不久，自己也跟随父亲逃往美国。成年后的阿米尔始终无法原谅自己当年对哈桑的背叛。为了赎罪，阿米尔再度踏上暌违二十多年的故乡，希望能为不幸的好友尽最后一点心力，却发现一个惊天谎言，儿时的噩梦再度重演，阿米尔无法抉择。

"The kite runner" is the author of Khaled Hossein, the story mainly talked about the 12 year old Afghan rich Amir master and servant Hassan like ones own brother. However, in a kite flying competition, there was a tragic thing is, Amir feels remorse and pain for their weakness, pushed Hassan, soon, oneself also followed his father fled to USA. Adult Amir couldnt forgive his betrayal of Hassan. In order to sin, Amir again embarked on more than 20 years of home, hope to do the last bit for the unfortunate friend, but found a blockbuster lies, childhood nightmare again, Amir cant decide.

小说以温暖细腻的笔法勾勒人性的本质与救赎，读来令人荡气回肠。读了这篇课文后，我觉得阿米尔不应该为了一件悲惨不堪的事而逼走了哈桑，毕竟友情是值得去追逐、去珍惜的。我觉得我们没有必要知道断线的风筝会飞到哪里去，甚至连它的影子都不值得去追随。只要你能为它而付出真心，它一定就在你所追寻的方向!

The novel to warm the delicate brushwork outlines the nature and salvation of humanity, to read a very touching. After reading this text, I think Amir should not be to a wretched thing and pushed Hassan, after all, friendship is worth pursuing, to cherish. I think we dont need to know the kite will fly to where, even its shadow are not worth to follow. As long as you can for it and give my heart, it must be you seek direction!

每年春节到来的时候，家家户户都张灯结彩，贴上了美丽的窗花，各种各样的大“福”字和春联，到处都是喜气洋洋的.。

Every year, when the Spring Festival comes, every family will put on lights

and decorations, paste beautiful window flowers, all kinds of big "Fu"

characters and spring couplets, which are full of joy.

然而2020年的春节却完全不一样，一场不见硝烟，不闻炮响的战争打响了，不宣而战，“新型冠状病毒“肺炎席卷而至，各地各部门积极响应，共同对抗疫情。白衣天使们，志愿者们……许许多多奋战在一线的勇士们，他们作为生命的逆行者，开启了2020的新篇章。

However, the Spring Festival in 2020 is totally different. A war without

smoke and guns has started, and the "new tubular virus" pneumonia has swept

through. All departments have responded positively and fought against the

epidemic together. Angels in white, armed police officers and soldiers,

volunteers. Many brave men are fighting in the front line. As the lifes

reverser, they have opened a new chapter in 2020.

作为少先队员的我也应该积极奉献自己的一份力量，做到今年过年，不串门，不聚餐，督促家人做好卫生防疫，不得已去公共场所必须规范戴好口罩，使用过的口罩按规定丢入“有害垃圾“桶。注重个人卫生，常通风，勤洗手，不随地吐痰，打喷嚏咳嗽时应做出正确遮挡。在家开展学习，加强锻炼，保护野生动物。

As a young pioneer, I should also actively contribute my own strength to

this years new years Eve, do not visit the door, do not have a dinner party,

and urge my family to do a good job in health and epidemic prevention. I have to

go to public places and wear masks in a standardized way. The used masks are

thrown into the "hazardous waste" bin according to the regulations. Pay

attention to personal hygiene, often ventilate, wash hands frequently, do not

spit everywhere, and make correct shelter when sneezing and coughing. Study at

home, strengthen exercise and protect wild animals.

2020年的钟声已经敲响，万紫千红的春天已经不远了，我想信在全国人民的共同努力下，我们一定能打赢这场“战役“，迎来我心中美好的2020!

The bell of 2020 has been ringing, and the spring is not far away. I

believe that with the joint efforts of the people of the whole country, we can

win this "battle" and usher in a better 2020 in my heart!

In 1872, Phileas Fogg, an English gentleman, bets 20,000 pounds that he can travel around the world in 80 days. Remember, there were no airplanes or other types of high speed travel.

Fogg and his servant, Passepourtout, leave from London, England and travel acrofour continents on their trip. In India, they meet a beautiful princeand save her life. She joins them on the journey and falls in love with Phileas Fogg.

They are followed around the world by Detective Fix, who has mistaken Fogg for a bank robber. He causes the group lots of trouble and delays, and finally arrests Fogg on the last day of the journey.

The trip was also delayed by storms at sea, unfinished railroad tracks, and an Indian attack in the American West.

Do you think Phileas Fogg and his friends made it around the world in 80 days?

With all of the delays, the group thought they arrived back at London five minutes too late. However, the next day they discovered they were one day ahead of schedule. This was because they had travelled all the way around the world in an eastward direction, ma-ki-ng them gain an extra day as they travelled acrodifferent time zones.

Oliver Twist, one of the most famous works of Charles Dickens’, is a novel reflecting the tragic fact of the life in Britain in 18th century.

The author who himself was born in a poor family wrote this novel in his twenties with a view to reveal the ugly masks of those cruel criminals and to expose the horror and violence hidden underneath the narrow and dirty streets in London.

The hero of this novel was Oliver Twist, an orphan, who was thrown into a world full of poverty and crime. He suffered enormous pain, such as hunger, thirst, beating and abuse. While reading the tragic experiences of the little Oliver, I was shocked by his sufferings. I felt for the poor boy, but at the same time I detested the evil Fagin and the brutal Bill. To my relief, as was written in all the best stories, the goodneeventually conquered devil and Oliver lived a happy life in the end. One of the plots that attracted me most is that after the theft, little Oliver was allowed to recover in the kind care of Mrs. Maylie and Rose and began a new life. He went for walks with them, or Rose read to him, and he worked hard at his lessons. He felt as if he had left behind forever the world of crime and hardship and poverty.

How can such a little boy who had already suffered oppressive affliction remain pure in body and mind? The reason is the nature of goodness. I think it is the most important information implied in the novel by Dickens-he believed that goodnecould conquer every difficulty. Although I don’t think goodneis omnipotent, yet I do believe that those who are kind-hearted live more happily than those who are evil-minded.

For me, the nature of goodneis one of the most necessary character for a person. Goodneis to humans what water is to fish. He who is without goodneis an utterly worthleperson. On the contrary, as the famous saying goes, ‘The fragrance always stays in the hand that gives the rose’, he who is with goodneundoubtedly is a happy and useful person. People receiving his help are grateful to him and he also gets gratified from what he has done, and thus he can do good to both the people he has helped and himself.

To my disappointment, nowadays some people seem to doubt the existence of the goodnein humanity. They look down on people’s honesty and kindness, thinking it foolish of people to be warm-hearted. As a result, they show no sympathy to those who are in trouble and seldom offer to help others. On the other hand, they attach importance to money and benefit. In their opinion, money is the only real object while emotions and morality are nihility. If they cannot get profit from showing their ‘kindness’, they draw back when others are faced with trouble and even hit a man when he is down. They are one of the sorts that I really detest.

Francis Bacon said in his essay, ‘Goodness, of all virtues and dignities of the mind, is the greatest, being the character of the Deity, and without it, man is a busy, mischievous, wretched thing, no better than a kind of vermin.’

That is to say a person without goodneis destined to lose everything. Therefore, I, a kind person, want to tell those ‘vermin-to-be’ to learn from the kind Oliver and regain the nature of goodness.

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与两年不见的友人在北京路吃罢晚饭后，一个人闲逛到了书店。最后，鬼使神差，买了一本郭敬明的《夏至未至》。其实，我也并没有那么讨厌他，我觉得你应该也一样，因为，除了比你成功，他也并没有做过什么实际意义上亏欠我们的事——这样一段话，其实也可以放在杨幂身上。不过，我还是要建议杨幂换一个包装团队，因为，不是在每个电影里都客串一下混个脸熟，观众就会日久生情喜欢上你;相反，审美疲劳这件事对嫩牛五方也是适用的，这也是为什么肯德基一而再再而三推出骗钱新品的原因。

我们还是回到郭敬明吧。

我之所以想看那本书，是因为书名《夏至未至》真是一个令人喜欢的名字。并且，如果我没记错的话，那个时候的郭敬明确实还在写东西，带着他年少时因为不合群而孤僻敏感的心在写东西。那个时候的他，不是万人迷;那个时候的他是如此没有自信，以致于所有青春年少里的美好时光都只能在他的笔下才得以实现。

我年少时，反倒并没有多想看他文字的念头。我在他的《岛》停刊之后很久，才看到了里面那篇《光线消失的井池》，那真是一篇写得很好的短篇，主角依旧带着那个时候郭敬明独有的细腻、敏感和莫名感伤的影子。其实，回看他早期的作品，你会发现那个时候他作品中的男生大多数都这样，《夏至未至》里，开篇对于傅小司和陆之昂的友情描写，几乎都可以让你闻到两个男生间独有的暧昧气息。也许就在书中这样一个夏天，郭敬明曾经对于一个男孩，报以同样的好感。这段感情在那个年代注定没有任何结果，于是，这个男孩就被留在了书里，被永远留在书中的那个夏天里。

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但愿他可以吻我。

女孩，你那个时候一定是这么想的。

但是故事的最后，你只在郭敬明的小说里找到了自己的影子，因为，那个男孩并没有吻你。

其实，你那时候迷恋的“万人迷”男孩，也许在十年后的今天，变成了又挫又令人难过的可怜人。只有你，当年怀着依恋并且孤身努力对抗命运的你，最终站在了这个男生的肩上。其实这不难想象，失意有时在某种层面上也算是好事，最好的例子就是当今的“青春小说大亨”郭敬明以及十年不败的流行天王周杰伦先生。他们，都是从自卑走过来的。以自己的孤单去对抗命运，最终过得比那时未正脸看你之人好，也算是一种报复。只是，这种报复，是孤单、没有退路并充满绝望意味的。

因为，无论是当时还是现在，那个男生，最后都没有吻你。他们被留在了那个夏天，那个十年前你还年少时，知了和蝉鸣不间歇的夏天。这个夏天如此固执地留在你心里，好像每一次你翻出来再看，都还可以闻到那个时候的香樟树香味。只有在那个夏天，男孩们还是完美的，他们穿着白衬衫，浅浅的独特汗味，好像存在就是为了吸引你。也许，这个就是在后来你“一个人的恋爱”前，其他人并不知道的故事。你喜欢的，只是被永远留在夏天的男孩，他们像是平行世界中的一个临界点，一直留在那里。

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当时的你，也曾以为自己会一辈子记住这个夏天。

但后来，这个夏天还是过去了。

同样的，在郭敬明《夏至未至》再版时，他自己写了再版序，里面告诉读者，那些发生在2004年夏天的故事，是怎样慢慢慢慢用十年时间在他的心里渐渐变淡。故事总是这样的，九把刀借着电影里陈妍希的嘴也告诉我们：人生，本来就有很多事情是徒劳无功的。大脑这个时候只是做了一个好心人，把认为我们都不需要的记忆，悄悄删去。

这之后的你们，慢慢踏前，学会更加理性去面对这个世界;年少时的依恋，像是贴了过久的创可贴，慢慢失去了粘性，等到它脱落时，我们就发现，伤疤原来早就已经好了。你拼命想要记住的人，往往属于另外一个世界。故事的结尾，那个一直与你毫无关联的男孩，那个在你心中曾与你恋爱了半个世纪的男孩，只能被永远留在了那个夏天。

那个夏天，最后就变成了两个字。

那就是，秘密。

相信大家都认识诸葛亮吧，他是一个足智多谋、神机妙算的人，在《三国演义》这本书中，他是为刘备出谋划策的军师。他料事如神，在每回故事中都起着相当重要的作用。我相信大家都迫不及待了吧。现在，我们便可以怀着神圣而崇高的心情翻开这本历史悠远的书了。

刚翻开书，便看见开头那神圣的名言：滚滚长江东逝水，浪花淘尽英雄……这也肯定 了我看这本书的心态。《三国演义》是一部断代的历史小说。作者罗贯中以自己机智的思想，把每个人物都刻画得栩栩如生，容许更多夸张、虚构、无中生有，化不可能为可能，几乎可以说是使作者得到解放，从必然王国走到自由王国。

大家肯定还记得《草船借箭》的故事吧。对，这就是《三国演义》中第四十六回“用奇谋孔明借箭，献秘计黄盖受刑”。

周瑜欲害诸葛亮，故意让诸葛亮在三日内造出十万支箭。诸葛亮算定三日后有大雾，乘草船带鲁肃前去曹营水寨，曹操下令放箭，十万支箭全部射在了草船上。黄盖为了周瑜火攻之计成功，决定用苦肉计骗过曹营细作，然后前去诈降。

这一回我看了有好多次，可每次看都有不同的感觉，每次看都记忆犹新，每次看都有不同的感受，使我感受深刻：周瑜是那样的小心眼，是那样嫉妒诸葛亮;而诸葛亮却那样的镇定自若，神机妙算，面对周瑜的刁难，他只是机智的面对，连鲁肃也不得不佩服诸葛亮的才干和正直。这也正是我喜欢诸葛亮的原因，这也正是我以诸葛亮为榜样的原因，了解了诸葛亮，也使我真正体会到“鞠躬尽瘁，死而后已”这句话深刻的含义。

在赤壁决战中，曹操在有利形势下，轻敌自负，指挥失误，终致战败。孙权、刘备在强敌进逼关头，结盟抗战，扬水战之长，巧用火攻，终以弱胜强。此战为日后魏、蜀、吴三国鼎立奠定了基础。

这一幕幕惊天地、泣鬼神的画面，使我感受深刻，三个国家的战争，各队军马奋力抗战，排山倒海，势不可当 。

这是一个英雄辈出、惊心动魄的世界，这是一个从东汉末年到西晋初年之间近一百年的历史风云，看完这本书，我感受深刻，并想告诉还没有看这本书的人，请你一定要一丝不苟的去看，故事中的情节连绵起伏，并用心去细细品味。

曾经有人说过:“人的生命似洪水奔流，不遇着岛屿和暗礁，难以激起美丽的浪花。”可是，当我们的生命遇到困难或者危险的时候，我们又该何做何为呢？

鲁迅说:“即使艰难，也还要做，愈艰难，就愈要做。”也有人说:“困难——是一种愚蠢而怯懦的东西，它惯于对着惊恐的眼睛卖弄它的威力，而只要听见刚健的脚步声就像老鼠似的悄悄向后缩去。”不错！困难就是怯懦的，美国的一位淘金者正是利用他前进的脚步声，战胜了怯懦的困难，最后到达了目的地。

那位淘金者，是美国作家杰克.伦敦写的《热爱生命》一书中的主人公，书中说:他已经多日没有进食了，胃饥饿得没有了知觉，腿已经被石头划得像两团烂肉，血流不止，身上的保暖用品都用来包裹腿了，他仍然坚持往前走，正在他身体极度虚弱时，又遭遇了一只病狼，病狼尾随着他，舔食他的血迹，并伺机将他咬死，而他也期待咬死病狼来挽救自己的生命，就这样，一个爬行的病人，一只跛行的病狼，在荒野中拖着垂死的身躯相互搏击，最后淘金者咬断了狼的喉管，靠自己的意志，喝了像铅液一样的狼血后睡着了。果然，俗话说的没错，“好运不会在人家等待的地方自然而来，而是经过弯弯曲曲的道路和难以想象的困难降临的。”就在这时，一艘考察队的船发现了他，并救了他，最后他到达了目的地。

看到这篇文章，我的心情百感交集，仿佛那位淘金者就在我的眼前，看着他为了活着狼狈不堪的样子，我非常难过。想到他喝狼血，又觉得他很残忍，可是反过来想，如果他不喝狼血，狼就一定会吃掉他，因为他们都想活下来。看到故事最后，我的脑海里剩下的全是对那位淘金者的敬佩之情。如果面对饥饿，他没有坚持到底的意志；如果面对全身的伤痛，他屈服了困难；如果面对危险，他对生命没有热爱。或许，他的生命早已消失在那片荒野上。这种在重重困难下永不低头，坚持到底，决不放弃生命的精神，难道不值得我们敬佩吗？

在我们身边，困难无处不在。学习上遇到难题，假如我们没有挑战的勇气，只想着听老师讲答案，久而久之，我们得到的只有依赖的思想和滑滑梯似的成绩。生活中，有的人为一点小感冒，小擦伤就不去上学，上班。我楼上有个同学就是这样，他经常一点小咳嗽就要请假。有一次，他妈妈有事要出去，让我上去陪生病的他，结果我发现一个多小时他只咳了一两声，并且玩得不亦乐乎。今天看了书中淘金者的故事，再想想楼上的同学，原来，在困难面前每个人的表现，差别竟然如此之大啊！

无论学习中还是生活上，困难我们避免不了。可是我们不能让困难，在我们面前卖弄它的威力，我们应该学习淘金者的精神，用坚强的毅力去战胜它。听外婆说:我们几十年前的中国，还是个贫困的国家，那时没有电，没有煤气，只能靠煤油灯照明，穿补丁衣服裤子也是最常见的，更没有现在的大鱼大肉吃，外婆祖上的好几个亲人都是因为饥饿而失去了生命，如今，我们的大中国能有如此繁荣，我想这与中国人民克服困难的意志和决心是分不开的。

之前，听同学说好书是一口泉水，口渴的人需要它，老师说好书是一块面包，饥饿的人需要它，今天，我想说《热爱生命》这本书它是一场春雨，我们的思想需要它！是它让我们明白了“山重水复疑无路，柳暗花明又一村”的道理。

同学们，我们一起战胜困难吧！别让怯懦的困难卖弄威力。

抛下安逸的生活，背井离乡去航海；独自在荒无人烟的小岛上生活二十多年；在一无所有的情况下用智慧、顽强的毅力和勤劳的双手创造出美好生活。是问这些都有谁能做到?可在英国作家笛福笔下，那个不信天命的鲁滨逊做到了。

笛福的《鲁滨逊漂流记》是一部广为人知的作品。1704年苏格兰水手赛尔科克在海上叛变，被抛到智利海外荒岛，度过5年，最后得救。笛福由此受到了启发，于是鲁滨逊诞生了。

小说中鲁滨逊不顾父亲劝阻，决心要出海经商。开头几次航海经商很顺利，但有一次为土耳其海盗所俘，幸而逃脱。四年后前往非洲贩卖黑奴，不幸在大海中遇险，漂流至荒岛，一个人在荒岛上造屋、种麦、喂羊、造床。后来在野人手中救了一个人做为自己的奴隶，生活了二十八年两个月十九天最后搭一艘路经荒岛的英国船回国。

鲁滨逊富有聪明才智，充满活力，不信天命，相信“常识”。他在这种极其不利的环境中保持乐观，克服了重重困难，叫人不由自主地升起敬佩之心。

最让我敬佩的就是“岛上安家”的情节了。那时鲁滨逊已经到了荒岛上，他并没有沉浸于悲痛之中，也没有哭诉着自己的不幸，而是逐渐冷静下来为自己寻找生路。

这份冷静是多么不易!看一下现在的社会，大多孩子是娇生惯养着的。被说是独自在荒岛上生活，就是连烧开的开水怎么关都不会，只会吓得直喊妈妈。正如《桃花心木》一文中所说：“在不确定中生活的人，能比较经得起生活的考验，会锻炼出一颗独立自主的心。”我们不应该做那株娇生惯养的小树苗依赖父母；而是应该学习鲁滨逊的乐观才智，不信天命，在不确定中，在困难中，学会把很少的养分转化为巨大的能量，努力生长。

Recently read "the great gatsby, a story of hegemony set up dawn. The north American continent, is hundred years ago, the economic development of the train sped forward; Friction machines roar, but also too much to hide a moment of the heart. The book, that history is a little mark.

Investigate its likelihood is a persons tragedy, is the tragedy of the society as a whole, may not be important. Wine party smallpox, extravagant luxury residence, colorful gorgeous clothes, just for the sake of his heart love Daisy. Think first, young and beautiful, sketched a period of time; Flies away and alternative fate lane person, in the heart of love is someone elses confidante. The deep love, the injury the farthest, cut; Not reality, immersed in the beautiful dream, but blurred the forward field of vision. Weakness of gunfire, all the dreams and beautiful, vulnerable to burst, scattered in the wind, without trace.

Gatsby, his great, because he was the degree of potential energy, but because of his pursuit of the good feelings. He hasnt done anything wrong, but also had to the empty rooms. A dream, how to do, easy, but also how to away, difficult to achieve. In an age of people pursuit of material, to be backed by real emotions. Buckish, stained with money, odour, lost a condition is a pure heart. Leave a piece of pure land, at that time, doomed to oblivion the audacity of commitments.

Finally wrote: "we continue to strive to move forward, stream, after being constantly push, until the return to the days of the old one."

Heart can not help a Chu. Accustomed to another potential, accustomed to the intrigue, people, really happy? Blundering world, difficult times, disguise the Buddhism, purports to recall the mood like that is like water. This, is the only thing we can do?

"Day after day, excitement consumed by gradually." Reality, kill too much like real unreal image. Those beautiful like a castle in the air, and hollow crowd away already. In between dreams and reality, we go from here?

Gatsby is the choice of the former. Even if the cruel reality, fate, his image is still great; Pure love is hard to stop, right and wrong about his, also make them in a glorious situation across the sphere of a bygone era. Quietly away, few people look at the light. Through one hundred, is the ray of light, to the left a dark era deserves stay have story.

Even if you, in the reality, still mark a dream back without regrets. That is worth pity era, these moving words, bring us infinite daydream.

最近在读《了不起的盖茨比》，一个霸权建立破晓时分的故事。那是百余年前的北美大陆，经济发展的火车疾驶向前;机器的摩擦轰鸣，却也过多地掩饰了一时的人心。这本书，便是那段历史点滴的印记。

究其然是一个人的悲剧，还是整个社会的悲剧，也许并不重要。酒天花地的派对，奢靡豪华的住处，五彩绚丽的衣衫，只是为了他心中挚爱的黛茜。回想初见之时，年轻美丽，一段草样的年华;荏苒而逝，奈何命运弄人，心中的挚爱已然他人的红颜知己。爱得愈深，伤得愈切;不干现实，沉浸于夙愿的美好，却模糊了前行的视野。无力的枪声，所有的梦想与美好，不堪一击地破灭，散于风中，了无踪迹。

盖茨比，他了不起，因为他因时度势的魄力，更因为他追寻美好的情愫。他没有做错什么，却也只得这人去楼空。一个梦想，如何极尽，唾手可得，却也如何之远，难以达到。在人人追求物质的时代，真实的情感那般一触即溃。浮华众生，沾染了铜臭气味，失却了是一颗至真纯净的内心。不留一片净土，那个时代，注定要湮没无畏的追梦者。

文中最后一句写道：“我们继续奋力前行，逆水行舟，被不断地后推，直至回到往昔的那段岁月。”

心中不禁一搐。习惯了争权夺势，习惯了勾心斗角，人们，究竟幸福吗?浮躁的世界，寸步难行的时代，掩饰了流俗，口口声声追忆似水般的年华。这，难道就是我们唯一可以做的吗?

“日复一日，兴奋之情被渐渐吞噬。”现实，抹杀了太多如真似幻的意象。那些似空中楼阁一般的美好，与空洞的人群已然渐行渐远。在梦想与现实之间，我们该何去何从?

盖茨比的选择是前者。纵然现实残酷，命运无常，他的形象依然伟大;单纯的难以阻挡的爱，左右了他的是是非非，也使之以一种壮美的势态划过一个过往时代的苍穹。悄然而逝，少有人注视其光芒。穿越了百年，正是这缕光，给那个昏暗的时代留下了一个值得留忆的故事。

即使逆水行舟，在现实的洪流中，依然印记一个追梦无悔的背影。那个值得悲悯的时代，这些动人的文字，带给我们无限的遐想。

左图封面上的女孩子，应该就是叶文洁吧？以前，我觉得这封面与小说无甚关系，因为我的注意力始终在三体那里，特别是智子。我甚至非常讨厌小说里对于叶文洁所有经历的设置。

这次重读，我才发现叶文洁的经历确实是重要的。如果《三体》中没有叶文洁，那么《三体》只能算一部普通的科幻小说，就像《上海堡垒》，我特别喜欢《上海堡垒》里脑洞大开的宏大场景和各种科幻设置。但是《上海堡垒》真的没有把人物写的立体丰满，更别提把读者带入到哲学思考的层次。这一点《三体》做到了——因为叶文洁。所以，这次我终于认可了《三体》的这个封面。

《三体》因为叶文洁而有了宏大而悲悯的视角——包括伊文斯，他们一主一副无不是在反思人类。借他们的嘴，《三体》对于人类和人性做了高度概括的解析。在读这些的时候，我的内心也是随着他俩的失望而失望、他俩的厌恶而厌恶，甚至于会认同他俩的人类已经没有能力以内部力量来解决自己的问题的思想。

但是，当三体人的信息被获取和解读以后，汪淼和丁怡的那种绝望感又捕获了我，连叶文洁再上雷达峰的那种悲凉感也让人感同身受。

《三体》让我们以不同的视角去感受各自的立场：在三体游戏里我们会同情三体文明，在叶文洁的经历里我们会痛恨人类的疯狂，在伊文斯的描述里我们承认人类的贪婪与自私，在智子锁死人类科技时我们跟着汪淼一起绝望，在叶文洁看向齐家屯时我们心中升起无限的悲悯。

正是《三体》使我们以不同的视角去体会和感知，使得《三体》具有了某些哲学意味。这使得它作为一本独立的小说，是完整的，逻辑和架构是清晰的。

而《三体》的另一个难能可贵之处还在于，它作为一个系列小说的第一部，给之后的续作奠定了宏大的叙事基调，因为《三体》把视角挪到了全人类的生存上。

Too fond of the right to pursue the expedient. (Oliver Goldsimith, British poet)

过分喜欢权力就会不择手段。(英国诗人 哥尔德斯密斯.O.)

We need in politics man who have something to give, not men who have something to get. (Bernard Baruch, Averican economist)

在政治中我们需要能有所奉献的人，而不是想有所收获的人。(美国经济学家 巴鲁克.B.)

Absence to love is what wind is to fire. It extinguishes the small; it inflames the great. (Roger de Bussy-Rabutin, French writer)

离别之于爱情好比风之于火，它能将小火熄灭，使大火熊熊燃烧。(法国作家 比西-拉比旦.R.)

Every man is a poet when he is in love. (Plato ancient Creek philosopher)

每个恋爱中的人都是诗人。(古希腊哲学家 柏拉图)

First love is only a little foolishness and a lot of curiosity. (George Bernard Shaw)

初恋就是一点点笨拙外加许许多多好奇。(英国剧作家 肖伯纳.G)

Friendship is like earthenware: once broken, it can be mended; love is like a mirror: once broken, that ends it. (Josh Billings. American humorist)

友谊就像陶器，破了可以修补;爱情好比镜子，一旦打破就难重圆。(美国幽默作家 比林斯 .J.)

Friendship is love without his wings. (George Gordon Byron, Bdritish poet)

友谊是没有羽翼的爱。(英国诗人 拜伦.G,G)

Gravitation is not responsible for people falling in love. (Albert Einstein, American scientist)

并非地球引力使人坠入爱河。(美国科学家)

Where there is great love, there are always miracles.

哪里有真爱存在，哪里就有奇迹。

Love is like a butterfly. It goes where it pleases and it pleases where it goes.

爱情就像一只蝴蝶，它喜欢飞到哪里，就把欢乐带到哪里。

If I had a single flower for every time I think about you, I could walk forever in my garden.

假如每次想起你我都会得到一朵鲜花，那么我将永远在花丛中徜徉。

Within you I lose myself, without you I find myself wanting to be lost again.

有了你，我迷失了自我。失去你，我多么希望自己再度迷失。

At the touch of love everyone becomes a poet.

每一个沐浴在爱河中的人都是诗人。

Love is the greatest refreshment in life.

爱情是生活最好的提神剂。

Love never dies.

爱情永不死。

The darkness is no darkness with thee.

有了你，黑暗不再是黑暗。

We cease loving ourselves if no one loves us.

如果没有人爱我们，我们也就不会再爱自己了。

There is no remedy for love but to love more.

治疗爱的创伤唯有加倍地去爱。

When love is not madness, it is not love.

如果爱不疯狂就不是爱了。

this year summer vacation, i read the american well-known writer hemingways novel " old person and sea ". i extremely admire in the novel the senior fishermans will, he let me understand one person certainly must have relentless spirit, only then could obtain successfully.

the novel description is one year near sixty years of age senior fisherman, when alone goes to sea in one fishing, fished one big fish, actually did not pull. the senior fisherman socialized several days after the fish, only then discovered this was the big marlin which one surpassed the oneself fishing boat several fold, although knew perfectly well very difficult to win, but still did not give up. afterwards and further because in the big marlin wound fish fishy smell brought in several crowds of shark fish snatches the food, but the old person still did not hope like this to give up, finally highlighted encircles tightly, returned to the big fish belt the fishing port, lets other fishermen not admire already.

when i read " the senior fisherman think: here to the seacoast really was too near, perhaps could have a bigger fish in a farther place... " when, i extremely admire this senior fisherman, because he by now already projected on some fish, but he had not settled to the present situation, but was approaches the bigger goal advance. again has a look us, usually meets one slightly is difficult, we all complain incessantly. we will be the motherland future, will be supposed to like this old person same mind lofty aspiration, will even better pursue even better, the bigger goal.

when i read " the big marlin start fast to gather round the young fishing boat hover, twined the cable on the mast , the old person right hand lifted up high the steel fork, leapt the water surface in it the flash, did utmost throws to its heart, one wail ended the big fishs life, it was static static floats on the water surface... " when, my heart also liked together the big stone falls. i extremely admire old person that kind do not dread, the relentless spirit, although knows the match strength is very strong, but he not slightly flinches, but is welcomes difficultly above. just because had this kind of spirit, the senior fisherman only then achieved this life and death contest success. we also must study senior fishermans spirit in life, handles the matter does not fear the difficulty, only then can obtain successfully.

" Les Miserables " (1862) is representative works of Victor Hugo,as one of the most famous novels in the French literature.

The novel basic plot is Ran A Rang pitiful life history. He originally is one poor family background worker, because the income insufficient family member gets by, by one time stole the bread is arrested is put in prison. Passed 19 years firm prison and the bitter service life. The punishment completely after also has the larceny behavior, but benevolent bishop in the rice the sorrowful influence, the transformation is one shed oneself manner person. He uses an alias is Madland, works as the entrepreneur, and is pushed for mayor. But soon and further because exposed the status is arrested is put in prison, after escapes rescues the deceased female worker Fantins daughter Cosette match from one bastard hand special, went to Paris. Afterwards again unceasingly encountered polices pursuit. The Ran A Rang entire life fills is imprisoned the pain which the bitter service and drifts about destitute, this is the novel main clue.

" Les Miserables " is the work which one realism and the romanticism unifies, the very many chapters glitter the realism glory, such as , in 1832 Pariss street barricade war all wrote is quite real. But the romanticism technique quite was also obvious in the plot arrangement, writes the many extraordinary events. If Ran A rang lets lie down is lifted in the coffin the monastery, he rescues from the street barricade Marilius, all is strange, molds, environment description, symbolic and contrast technique aspect and so on utilization in the character image, also manifests the romanticism the characteristic.

我今天读了《老人与海》这本书，它讲的故事令我非常感动。

老人在八十一天没有捕到鱼之后，他终于捕到了一只剑鱼。可是，在他回来的路上，他遇到了一只鲨鱼，他与鲨鱼搏斗一场，最后，老人失去了他捕到的剑鱼，他又空手而归了。

老人永不言败的精神感动了我，在他与鲨鱼搏斗时说：“你可以杀死一个人，但你永远不可以打败他”。老人宁死不屈的精神让我为之震撼，我又想起了司马迁，他也没放弃自己的生命，终于写成了《史记》；我又想起了张海迪，她瘫痪在床，但还是用吉它歌唱自己的人生；我还想起贝多芬，他双目失明，双耳失聪，却写出了9部交响曲……

我终于明白自己平常生活中，无论遇到怎样的困难都不能放弃，要坚持，这样才能成功。

他，是一位抗日时期的著名将领，严于律己，正直勇敢，带领的部队曾被誉为“铁军”，而更令人敬佩的，是他的革命精神与爱国情怀!

1931年，他因积极抗日反对蒋介石被蒋介石逼迫下野，到国外“考察实业”，实际上是被夺取军权，防止抗日。可他到了美国就接二连三受到意想不到的刺激，很多人歧视中国人，对日本人却奉若神明。一天，他往国内寄衣物，而邮局职员竟说世界上已经不存在中国了，他顿时怒不可遏，刚要发作，陪同人劝到：“你为什么不说自己是日本人呢?只要说了就可受到礼遇。”他当场怒斥：“你觉得当中国人丢脸吗?可我觉得当中国人光荣!”为了维护民族尊严，他找了一块木板，用毛笔写上“我是中国人”几个大字，并仔细地在下面注上英文，将其挂在胸前。他挺着胸膛，昂首阔步地穿过围观的外国人，显现着中华民族的尊严。

1934年，他被国民党逮捕，面对“立时枪决”的命令，他平静地向敌人要来纸和笔，挥笔疾书，写下了自己坎坷的一生，揭露了蒋介石的种种罪行，在给夫人的遗嘱中写道：“夫今死矣，是为时代而牺牲……”接着，他披上斗篷，从容不迫地走向刑场，以地作纸，枯枝为笔，写下了一首感天动地、浩然正气的绝命诗：“恨不抗日死，留作今日羞。国破尚如此，我何惜此头!”然后他声色俱厉地对执行官喝令：“我为抗日而死，为革命而死，不能跪下挨枪，死后也不能倒下，给我拿把椅子来!”他坐定后，又喝道：“到前面开枪!共产党要死得光明正大，决不能在背后挨枪，我要亲眼看着蒋介石的子弹是怎样打死我的!”当特务在他面前颤抖着举起枪时，他振臂高呼：“中国共产党万岁!打倒日本帝国主义!中国革命万岁!”

他，是“一个有骨气的中国人。”他有着革命精神，将一生献给革命;他有着强烈的爱国情怀，国难当头，他挺身而出，光荣献身。他做的一切，是为了捍卫民族尊严，振兴中华民族。他的伟大事迹与精神震撼着一代代中国人，他的名字，就叫做——吉鸿昌!

像每一次一样，我又来到了这里，邹月跳楼的地方，我呆呆的站在屋顶，看着那个小月消失的地方。那一幕出现在眼前：“邹月望望楼下，又望望我，怨恨地说：“他说他永远也不会抛弃你，邹雨，今天我要让你心甘情愿抛弃他。我从你身边跳到他面前去，这样，你们就永远都不能在一起了。”说完，她就那样的跳了下去，不，不要，小月不要，我大声的哭，大声的喊，不要，不要。

我从梦中惊醒，泪流满面，虽然那件事情已经过去一年多了，但每天晚上这样的梦都会出现在我的眼前，让我永无止尽的回忆着那一幕，这是惩罚吗，小月对我的惩罚，对爱上不该爱的人的惩罚。

我服用大剂量的安眠药，希望可以在睡眠中得到片刻的休息，但是，我越来越发现，即使再多的药，对于我来说也是徒劳的。也许我一生都无法忘记那一幕。

从香港回来已经半年了，在这半年中我用大量的工作来麻痹自己，让自己从大脑到身体没有一刻是休息的，这样我就不会想起那一幕。江心遥用手抚摸着他的头发，说了“Ken,I love you。” 而他也回头说了“I love you， too。”

是的，我的英文一直都不好，但是该死的，我居然可以轻易的就认出了那个口型。真的不知道，聪明是一件值得高兴的事情，还是一件应该难过的事情。他说他也爱她。这不是很好吗，他们相爱，幸福的生活在城堡里，不食人间烟火。标准的王子与公主的爱情结局。可是，为什么我的心会这么痛呢，在我以为我已经麻木了的时候。

本来就不好的睡眠现在更难了，夜晚对于我来说已经成为一种折磨，用再多的药，睡着后，小月、林启正、江心遥，一个又一个画面，在我的面前不停的转换，每每我都在大声的哭叫中惊醒，然后，一坐到天明。

“邹雨，你最近的工作太多了，不要给自己那么大的压力。”

“高展旗，我没有事情，多做些工作，多赚点钱，我又不像你老婆，有人养。”

“你从香港回来后，就比以前更拼命的工作，是不是在香港发生什么事情了。”

“高大律师，你的想像力未免也太丰富了，香港什么事情都没有发生，如果你认为一定要发生些什么的话，那我只能告诉你，就是我受了强大的刺激。”

“什么刺激?”

“就是没钱呀。对于自己喜欢的东西，不能直接拿下，还要考虑这个月的生活费的问题。所以，我要多多的赚钱，买自己喜欢的东西呀。”

“邹雨，不要这样，太辛苦。

说完就转身走了。是的，辛苦，又怎会不辛苦呢，我现在渡过的每一天对我来说都是辛苦的。

今天与往常的每一天没有什么不同，可是，今天又与往常的每一天不同。为什么呢?今天我在电视中无意间看见了一篇关于xc的报道，看见了五颜六色的经幡，看见了许许多多磕长身头的人，而最触动我的是那句“守望的眼睛和灵魂”。是呀，我的灵魂在哪里呢?在我爱上林启正的时候就不知去向了。

我象一个突然间发现了生命信仰的信徒一样，向往着那片土地，好像有一个声音在不断的召唤着我，“去吧，去吧，到了那里就解脱了。”我象着了魔一样，匆匆的在事务所请了假，还记得和郑主任请假时他吃惊的表情，他问我要请多久，我说不知道。真的不知道，也许很快，也许永远都不回来了，就留在那里，涤荡我罪恶的灵魂。

我没有留下任何可以联络到我的方式，收拾了简单的行囊，没有告诉任何人我的去向，只是说出去散散心。包括我的弟弟，邹天。我不想让关心我的人担心，一切的事情就让我一个人来承担吧。

我就这样一路人象着xc的方向进发了，我选择了最古老的方式去xc，徒步加火车。我象一个真正的苦行僧一样，通过身体的苦行，锻炼心灵的轻灵。我每到一处，都会到当地的邮局给弟弟寄一张明信片，告诉他我很好。

我的行囊中唯一表示我过往的就是我的律师证，当初带上它的理由已经不记得了，但很庆幸我带着它。在沿途，会偶尔碰到一些可怜人，提供了一些帮助。很高兴，我还可以帮助别人。

经过几个月的行走，我终于来到了我的目的地-xc。这里有着林林总总的寺庙，预示着宗教对于这片土地上生存的人们有着非同一般的意义。寺庙总是像天上的星星一样散落在城市、村庄、山谷、草原………。

我像一个虔诚的信徒一样，虔诚的跪拜一座又一座的寺庙，一尊又一尊菩萨。在拉萨的大昭寺，我被那些虔诚的朝拜者深深的感动，那些磕长身头的朝拜者，将大昭寺前的石板磨得光滑如镜，很多朝拜者是从很远的地方一路磕长头过来的。这是怎样的信仰呀。

最后，我在达普寺住了下来。达普寺，在拉萨市墨竹工卡县境内，位于县驻地东北的章达乡、吉曲河以东，背倚夏斯山，面临帕朗山，海拔3850米。达普寺始建于12世纪，由大修行者聂麦的贤弟子仁钦宁布所建，后来热译师的弟子枳务贡布又在那里修行时，为教化众生修建了一座化身红塔，逐渐成为格鲁派的著名寺院。但这些都不是吸引我留在这里的原因，真正的原因是，这里的主持-络绒登巴，藏语的意思是“智慧佛陀”的意思。

这是一个睿智的老者，炎炎烈日将他的皮肤晒的黝黑，虽然上了年纪，一双眼睛还是时刻闪烁着智慧的光芒，慈祥的面容，彷若洞知一切。这里是一个象人间仙境一样的地方，宁静而悠远。

时间在指尖匆匆流过，我在达普寺已经居住了很长的一段时间，好像整个身心得到了解脱般，小月和林启正没有再出现在我的梦里，而我也很久没有做梦了。每天听着僧侣的念经声，真的是晨钟暮鼓。

络绒登巴禅师给我将了这样一个故事：

从前有一位禅师非常喜爱兰花，在寺院中栽种了许多美丽的兰花，在讲经说法之余，总是悉心照料这些兰花，大家都说，兰花好像是禅师的生命。可是一天禅师外出，一个弟子受禅师委托，为兰花浇水，但是不慎将花架打翻，所有的兰花都坏了。弟子很害怕，决定等禅师回来受罚。

但禅师回来后，并没有生气，反而安慰弟子，“我之所以喜爱兰花，为的是要用香花供佛，并且为了美化禅院，并不是想生气才种的。”

络绒登巴讲到这里就没有再讲下去，留下尾音让我自行参透。这个故事我考虑了很久，络绒登巴到底要告诉我什么呢?在每日的经声中我参悟，一日，当我看见五彩的经幡时，终于了悟了络绒登巴的含义。

络绒登巴要告诉我，世间的事物变化无常，我们不必要执著于心爱的事物而无法割舍，毕竟，我们喜爱一种事物的初衷，并不是因为失去它时要伤心。人生中的许多事情既已失去，不妨就让它失去吧。是呀，何必执著。唯有放下，才能解脱。

我请络绒登巴为邹月坐了一场法事，无论是对她，还是对我，我都希望小月可以解脱，不再恨我，而最主要的是我希望她可以在另一方乐土上快乐的生活。络绒登巴是一个很好的长者，总是若有若无的开导着我。

法事后我将小月的骨灰连同一棵小树种在了寺院附近的土地上，希望小月可以在这里脱离仇恨，获得新生。我每天都去和她说话，告诉她我每天的生活，每天的想法。我经常想如果我可以早些告诉她我真实的想法，也许最后，她就不会选择这样的路，这样的方式来告诉我，她有多恨。

我几乎断绝了与外界所有的联系，我想留在这里，真的想留在这里。因为我找到了我心灵的净土。

我有了一个美丽的名字-益西拉姆，她的藏语意思是“智慧仙女”，是当地居民给我起的名字。因为我帮助了当地的居民才仁多让，帮助她与她的丈夫离婚。我用我的智慧、我的知识以及我的律师证得到了当地居民的爱戴。她们给我起了这个美丽的名字。这里没有邹月的姐姐，没有林启正的爱人，只有一个普通的汉女，有着美丽藏语名字的我。

“拉姆姐姐，你又去看你妹妹呀。”

“是呀，增吉，我想我妹妹希望每天可以看见我。”

这个可爱的孩子是当地居民的孩子，就是我帮助的那家的，她现在和我很好，每天都可以看见她，她也会经常和我说说话，虽然她的普通话真的是很糟，但那并不重要。

“拉姆，这个上面登的是寻找你的吧?”

我回头，仰望，是络绒登巴，阳光从他的身后照耀过来，彷若天神。他的手中握着一份报纸，那是我拒绝的东西，此刻正摆在我的面前。我接过报纸一看，淡笑了出来，真亏他们想的出来，报纸上有一张见方的照片，照片上的人好像前生一样，那是一张生活照。旁边附着简短的一句话，“久未联络，甚忧”。

许多事情不是逃避就可以当做从未发生。一个简短的电话，让我知道了一件重要的事情，我已经了无牵挂的决定留在这里。

“拉姆姐姐，这个小树代表谁呀。”

“增吉，这个是姐姐曾经爱的人，现在和小月姐姐在同一个地方，过着幸福快乐的日子呢?”我看着那棵新近栽种的小树。

是的，那棵树代表的是林启正，高展旗在电话中告诉我，林启正与他父亲、后母、以及大哥、大嫂，江心遥在一次集体出游的时候，遇到了空难，无一生还。林家的全部家产留给了他的三弟，一个清淡的人。之所以说他清淡，是因为他与自己的大哥、二哥完全不同，从不涉足商业，是一个简单的自由画家，得到了这么多的家产居然给拍卖了。曾经的林氏集团，现在已经不复存在了。真是一个拿的起放得下得人，懂得生活得真正意义。

而我，高展旗以为我会崩溃，左辉以为我会崩溃，邹天以为我会想小月一样，我以为我会……。但是，我没有。记得我第一次将我想留在寺里的想法告诉络绒登巴时，络绒登巴看着我的眼睛告诉我，“红尘中有你牵挂的人，你放不下。而这里也不是你的避难所，只有你自己真正的放下了，才可以。到了那个时候，你在那里都是一样的。”现在，是不是就算了无牵挂了呢?

络绒登巴还是不同意我要真正的留在这里，还是和上一次同样的话语，我好迷茫，但是，我相信，这个睿智的老人一定有他独到的见解。但是为了表示我的决心，我穿上了女尼的褐红色的袍子，将头发剪的短短的。我要和我的前生说再见，再见了我爱的人，爱我的人。

“拉姆姐姐，最近我们寺里来了一个漂亮的哥哥，就住在后面，你见过吗?”增吉幼稚而甜美的声音在我的身后响起。

“漂亮的哥哥”，多有趣的形容词呀，也只有纯洁天真的孩童会用这样的词语。“漂亮”，让我想起了林启正，他是我见过最帅的男人，他说对了，“爱过我的女人，不会再爱上其它人”他做到了。

“增吉，姐姐见过的最漂亮的人现在就躺在这里。”我头也未回的说。

“我以为我是你见过最漂亮的哥哥呢?”一个沙哑的声音在我的身后响起，那个仿佛永远不可能出现的声音，我呆呆的蹲在原地，在心里告诉自己，是幻听，因为太想念的缘故。

一个影子出现在地上，高高的影子，影子的主人应该是一个很高的人吧。他蹲在了我的身边，我们一起看着面前的两个绿油油的小树。

我象慢镜头一样，慢慢的转过头，看见了，我曾经说“五官太俊美的男人没有回味的余地”，但是不可否认，即使看上去很疲惫，并不影响他俊美的外表，眼神疲惫，但并不冰冷，不冷漠，仿佛带着快乐。

我抬起手抚摸上他的头发，这是我从香港回来后就一直想做的事情。也许是神听见了我的祈祷，满足了我的愿望。我从头发抚摸到脸，手的触感是温暖的，林启正，是你吗，我喃喃的说，仿若自言自语。

是我，林启正，我来找你，然后永远不分开。

“邹雨，我终于找到你了，我快找遍整个中国了，你每一个发明信片的地址我都去找过了，最后所有的信息指向了这里-xc。但毕竟xc是这样的大，我费了好大的力气才找到你，这是不是皇天不负苦心人呢。”

我看着眼前这个快乐的男人，又转头看看我面前的小树，好像一切发生的太突然了，让我无法反应。

“邹雨，那个小树不会是我吧。”

“嗯，是的，另一棵是小月”

“也对，那个林启正已经在空难中死去了，就象邹月一样，我们已经用我们的痛苦赎罪了，现在站在你面前的是“扎西多吉”，络绒登巴给我起的新名字。知道是什么意思吗?

“吉祥金刚”我喃喃的回复。

“对，我聪明的益西拉姆”。

虽然短短的几句，我已经可以了解到林启正所经历了一些事情，我不想问他，为什么他没有死，我不想问他，他之前的努力就这样轻易的放弃了吗，我不想问他，他真的决定了吗。历劫生死，我好像看见天使挥舞着美丽的翅膀飞走了，谢谢你，让他回到了我的身边。落日的余晖照映在相互依偎的两个人身上，宁静而美丽。

She was seduced by a so-called gentleman—Alec, and from then on her life totally changed from this loss of innocence. People looked down on her and respected her no more. Actually she did nothing wrong because before she was seduced she knew nothing of men. She was just a girl when she first met that terrible man.

She was forced by the gossips and the church to blame herself for this accident, so she thought she deserved nothing good. In order to get rid of the past she decided to go to a distant dairy farm but was still saying to herself that she was wrong. Maybe God didn’t aGREe with that, because the Lord gave her someone she loved with her whole heart and life—Angel Chare. Angel popped the question to her but she refused him without saying why. She said she loved him deeply and perhaps no one in the world could love him more than she did but she could not marry him for some unspoken reason. Angel wasn’t satisfied with this vague answer and did his best to win Tess. Somehow she agreed and they soon fixed the wedding day. Soon after their wedding Angel confessed the crime he committed to a woman long time ago and asked for Tess’s forgiveness. Tess was not at all angry and forgave Angel at once; in fact she was rather happy and excited for she also had things to confess.

She sat and told everything to Angel, hoping he would forgive her as he was forgiven but she was wrong. She was not forgiven, not as she thought she was. The woman pays.

Without Angel’s love, nothing meant anything to her. The result wasn’t important now. Tess was arrested for her murder of that so-called gentleman. Why? She still loved Angel and when he finally went back to her and asked for HER forgiveness, after he reGREtted what he had done unfair to Tess, she was desperate. That was too late—Alec had always told Tess that Angel would never come back so he won Tess’s trust. Unluckily Angel did come back and found Tess.! Everything was too late!

Tess was deceived and she lost Angel for the second time! The strengh of her love was so strong that she had forgotten the difference between right and wrong. Before that she had done nothing wrong but when she killed Alec, everything really changed! She became a criminal! How could it be? She was as pure and innocent as the good wife in the Bible. Her whole character was honest and faithful. Angel figured out at last that a person should be judged not only on what he has done but also on what he wanted to do!

Tess didn’t want to be seduced by man and she had no power to defend herself so she lost her innocence and that’s all! Angel also did the wrong thing and it was even more serious than Tess’s crime but HE was not blamed for it. Why it is always the woman who pays? Why they are always hurt? Why was Tess’s girlish purity lost? Why does the wrong man take the wrong woman? Why do the bad often ruin the good? Why is beauty damaged by ugliness? Women are too weak! Thousands of years of history have shown us that women have always been treated unfairly!

In old China there was a culture, which didn’t think of women as human beings. If you asked one if he was the oldest in his family, he would probably answer “the oldest one” even if he had some elder sisters. If you asked why then he would say, “Ha, they are not included!”

People gave birth to many girls in order to have only one boy to keep the family name going. They thought girls had no use for the family. They would be married and go to live with their husbands’ home and be their wives some day sooner or later. So they were extremely hard on girls.

Girls should be hard working, faithful, loyal, intelligent, and virtuous and the most important thing was she must be a maiden! If her husband was the first man who touched her then she was a good girl, a good wife no matter how she thought. If she wasn’t, then she would gain a very bad reputation and nobody would dare to go near her. What about men? People did not care whether he was an experienced man or not, nor did they care about his character. They thought man equals power and power equals rights…

Now let’s not be so bitter. Nowadays women’s situations have become much better. Some are because of the change of society and some are because of civilization. Just let those poor painful women like TESS be just a memory.